ugh i feel seriously down. like mega down
apparently i was working my freaking butt off on the GoA masterquest right
this one apparently
did this one all day after i got home from quite a smooth day that is friday
oh i also succeeded the drama for school's indonesia class and i also did the material reading for keputrian OHOHOHO
so after what i thought was a not so bad day, i hurry up and tried to make the GoA MQ while chatting with kak Michi
tried to motivate myself by watching inazuma when i'm done
so i tried and worked my BUTT off don't take breaks and I DIDN'T GET DISTRACTED i listen to the same music again and again not risking to get distracted and drawing those poses killed me cause i never really tried to finish an action like that i was really proud that i finished the lineart and when i finished with the characters i was really really happy! my stomach was quenching from the feeling of satisfaction and how people whould react when they saw this and all that i had butterflies in my tummy guys, i was really excited! ;v;
but i was still stuck on the bad guy, so i just.. slab on him in the middle then post it
i actually already had a bad feeling about the bad guy but i shrugged it off
oh but then the IMPACT comes
almost every single people who commented on it apparently says that it's "OMG SO FUNNY I'M LOLING HAHAHA" and ALSO there's actually this one comment on it. he has a similar enthusiasm about how funny it is with the example. and you know what? i was actually kinda shocked LOL because i didn't intend that thing to be funny i wanted it to look COOL, AWESOME, or EPIC or AT LEAST something close.
but i fucked up and everyone else after that guy kept saying how freaking funny it is. i never wanted to make it crack or funny, honest. but i guess it's my own fault HAHA to put a guy with that expression in the middle i guess i'm just an idiot. and now i regret it so fcking much i feel like all my effort has gone too waste. people didn't even see the poses that i worked HOURS for because i fcking focused it on the "poor bad guy"
i get even lamer for feeling depressed because of this. but i just feel really really worthless LOL
alllllll my hard work and effort gone HAHA
and i get EVEN LAMER for making it seems like the commenters are the bad guys. they aren't really they didn't mean to, they still comment and i appreciate that, it's my fault to make it look that way anyway but i just needed to take this out.
if anyone read this (i'm guessing none) i give you aaaaall the thanks i have ;v;
